Sabinagl's Journals

its my birthday =D

today is my birthday =). im finally 15. jamie gave me his old bass guitar =) its black. im thinking about naming her eclipse oor charlott idk ahah. i love you guys i hope you have a nice day =) <3

xoxoxoxoxoxo sabbi <3 =)

update update update =)

hiiii everyone =). just wanna update cuz i havent in a while lol. i feel like buzznet/foe is dead ahaa i feel like none of my friends on here go on any more =(.

im watching the tool academy and i feel so bad fer the girls with their tool boyfriends. tools are lame >.> ahaha

me and jamie are doing good... did i tell u guys im dating jamie? idk but yes jamie has been my best friend for almost 3 years =). hes so sweet and nice and he really likes me =D ahah so yess. ummmm how is everyone else? do u guys even read these? ahaha oh well =).

follow me on twitter =) twitter.com/FallOutSabbi

xoxoxoxo sabina <3

my picture got featured!!

alright so my pictured got featured on buzznet and im so happy right now! ive been on buzznet for about 2 years and i never got featured so im pretty stoked ahah. well heres the email i got

From	buzzbot
Date	08/24/2009 10:13 AM
Subject	One of your photos has been featured.
Congratulations. You have a post that has been considered best of the best on Buzznet. Here's the post that was selected: http://sabinagl.buzznet.com/user/photos/love-andy-hurley-mad-true/?id=56706281

so i just wanna say to everyone, thank you guys for being my friends on here, thank you buzznet for this feature. thank you all i love all of you guys <3

xoxoxo sabina <3

so i feel like theres alot going on and you guys need an update =)

well helloooooo =) just want to give and update. plus i havent wrote a journal in a while (or it feels like it).

so lets start with the cab eh? so cash left the band due to i guess to much stress at home and stuff he wrote a blog about it on the cabs myspace i think. well yea i am tottally ok with it cuz i mean he had a good reason. im super sad though dont get me wrong cuz cash was my fav in the cab and i loved him (never more than andy but u kno what i mean) so i was sad to see him leave. i hope when he is ready he will go back to the cab =). what do u guys think about it??

today ive been asking my family would ur rather have your body be possessed by..... ect so i am wondering to you guys,

would you rather have your body be possessed by God or Jesus? i asked this on twitter so sorry if my twitter followers r reading this but yea what would u rather be possessed by and why?

well let move on to my cell phone. im now lik 99.9% sure its possessed by something cuz one it started blinking by its self then it turned off by its self, then 20 mins later it started to talk like there was some1 on the other line speeking spanish but i didnt call it nor touch my phone, it was next to me the whole time. im creeped out like by alot!!!

okay last little update, i have a crush on my guy best friend. hgis name is Jamie, ive liked him on and off for a while but told him about 2 or 3 days ago. he likes me too, he toldd me he has since 8th grade (when we met) and thats great and struff but hes moving to florida soon. =( he told me today hes thinking about staying were we live for me, he told me i he didnt wanna give me up and with out me he felt hopeless and stuff. now thats made sweet cuz nobody ever told me they needed me or stuff like tht, ive always felt usless and invisable not just to guys but to my family and friends, and thats what, mainly got me depressed in my past but to hear that form your best friend its amazing! i was scared to tell hiom my feeling cuz 1 i didnt kno if he felt the same and 2 if he didnt i didnt wanna ruin our friend ship, so i told abbey like towards the end of the year tht i liked him and yea. but i want him to stay but in fl he can do his dream and make it so i want him to live his dream. i kno where ever he goes he will make it though, he will become famous in a band one day i kno it, hes that good.

so anyways yes thats all my updates =) i have a quizilla i think i said this in the last journal but its AndyHurleysGirl i dont go on it much but whatever add me if you have one =) also follow me on twitter, my username is FallOutSabbi

love you all <3 xoxoxox sabina <3

so latley ive been reading alot of...

fanficion. most of it has been with rydon =) <3 i miss when you guys *cough lexy* *cough scarz* wrote about rydon ahaha. i miss when ryan was sensitive and sweet, now hes a pot headed coke snifin alcohol abuser man whore. >.< idk i hate him honestly which sucks cuz he use to mean alot to me >.> never thoguht im my life he end up like his dad. but oh well. anywhooo so yea who here has a quizilla account *raises hand* okay so add me if u do, its AndyHurleysGirl

and if u have one comment ahah. oh yea if u have a youtube account tell me so i can add you =)

xoxo sabina =) <3

im dying

http://www.fuckcity.com/media/fuck-city-podcast-003/ OMG go into 30 mins. andy hurley freaken answered my question and said my freaken name i think im gonna die <333

so my sister

is acting rediculus. she honestly think shes like 17 seriosuly shes on freaken 12 -__- its annoying how she trys to convince my parents to do things. shes pathetic. it makes me feel so bad fer me and my parents that we have to put up with her. anywhoo she thinks shes marrying her bf (i hate him btw) and i honestly cant wait till they break up lawl. but anywho anyone in your family that annoys u?

love sabbi <3

I MET THE CAB!!!! =D

okay so last night i met the cab and i went to their concert. so let me start from the begining. abbey came over and we were getting ready fer the concert. we drove to valentines (club they were playing at) and we were waiting in line to enter the club. so we were talking with our friend heather and such and i turn around and look into this window (and it was a lundery mate place) and i look into the window and say to myself wow that guy looks alot like alex deleon (the singer for the cab) and he turns his head and i see that mole he has on his face and i go omg thats alex!! so im jumping up and down like this fan girl and i was like omg omg omg. so i went inside with abbey and my sis paula and alex was doing his laundery. and i go hi alex and he was like hey and i go am i bothering you and he was like no not at all and i was like can you sign the cd for me and he was like sure and then i got a picture with him. and i was like need any help he was like nah.

so then i saaw bryan and cash but they were on the phone so i didnt interupt and then i saw johnson smoking a cig on the other said so i was like abbey lets go say hi so we went over there and i was like hi johnson are we intereupting you and he was like no so i asked him to sign my cd and i got a pic with him. and we were takling a bit and then we went back in line. (also there was no body gaurds for any of them) so were in line and bryan got off the phone and he was doin laundery too so i was like hi bryan welcome to the band =) and he was like thanks and i was like how are you he said good and then paula points out we have the same necklace and hes like but i have the guy version and i was like yea but thats cool and he said yea people tell me they have this necklace but i never saw it on someone else. so i asked him to sign my cd and got a pic with him. i was so happy =D.

so then marshall comes in the laundery place with his suit case and hes taking his clothes out or whatever so me paula and abbey go in and i was like hi marshall are we bothing you and he was like no (omg btw his eyes are so freaken big!! im watching you abbey XD XD but damn they are huge) so i asked if he can sign my cd he did got a pic with him and i was like thanks so much. and abbey was like shaking she was like sorry im shaking ahaha but it was all good =). and then cash was finally off the phone so me and paula went to see him and we were talking a bit he signed my cd and i got my pic with him. they were all really cool guys. they were so down to earth and chilled. they didnt even have a body gaurd with em they were nice.

so we wait fer like 2 hours in line and finally we get to go in and me abbey paula and my mom are in the front of the stage like right there (eye level abbey XD) so my favoret highway comes on first and they were really good, then it was eyealaska and they were pretty good (i caught the drumstick =). the singer was like idk he was interesting. then came the summer set and the girl drummer was the shit! she was soooo good!! and then it was the secret handshake and omg they are really really good =)

then the cab finally came on and i was all ahh <333 so alex was like in our face he was singing and smiling and everything i was touching him ahaha and cash mhm cash was like ahh. bryan rocked out and he was amazing fer a new drummer <3. so one part during high hopes in velvet ropes the mic goes out and the whole crowd is singing and alex and bryan looked impressed like they didnt expect fans to kno every single word. so after a while alex was walking around the stage and such and i grab his sweat towel and he turns around to me and gives me the hold on finger (like a promise just wait) and at the end of the concert he gives me and abbey the towel HIS FREAKEN SWEATY TOWEL HIS SWEAT!!! so im like omg omg omg omg omg im fliping out i was sooooo happy!! and he promised me too which was even better!!.

so after the concert ends theres bands scattered everywhere in the club so we got to take some pics with em like some of the guys from eyealaska and from the secret handshake and such so we go outside and the guys from the cab are out there and abbey wanted a pic with bryan (i think it was with abbey at least) so we go over there and i was like bryan you did such a good job! i hope you guys come back soon. when you come back i hope to see you and he was like no you are going to come and see us and i was like ahh yes yes i will!! ahaha he was sooo cool!

then i go to alex and im like thank you so much for the towel and you did such a great time and he was like no problem and your welcome. so i asked him to sign it and he was like you wont see it cuz the its too dark so i was like oh then can you sign the tag and he did. and then i was like can i have a hug? and he was like yea sure! so he gave me a hug (and i thought it was gonna be one of those quick 2 second hugs but it was like 6 or 7 seconds long!) and then we look at each other (and i wanted to kiss him so bad im not kidding i was like gonna lean in) and then he lets go of me and pats my head and says goodnight hun and i was like all jelly and like shaking so im like good night thanks again drive safe. and then i walk away and into the car to go home. it was basically amaizng. meeting em and everything.

those boys were so nice and im happy they arent all bitchy and stuff uber nice men =)

sorry this was so long ahaha. love sabina <3

one of the worst days of my life

my second fav band has split. panic at the disco will no longer have ryan ross and jon walker.this is the message they sent to fans on their website.

To Whom It May Concern...

July 6th, 2009

Ryan Ross and Jon Walker will be leaving Panic at the Disco to embark on a musical excursion of their own. Though the four of us have made music together in the past, we've creatively evolved in different directions which has compromised what each of us want to personally achieve. Over the years, we have remained close and honest with each other, which helped us to realize that our goals were different and that parting ways is truly what is best for each of us. We are all excited for the future, you should be too.

-Ryan & Jon

Stay posted to the Panic site for updates on Ryan and Jon's new project, as well as a message from Brendon and Spencer who will continue on as Panic At The Disco. All touring and album plans for Panic will continue as previously announced.

i support ryan and jon, but NO ONE will ever replace them. they were like idk. im gonna miss panic with out ryan and jon. i will forever love panic im a true diehard. they have been through so much. im just really sad. less than a month ago, the cab announced that ian has left the band and i was sad. but panic my second fav band gone?? im just sorry ima stop now. i support ry and jon but forever no one will replace them.
-sabbi

And this is how she feels says the voice in her head.

WARNING: this may all just be complaining, basically im writing everything in my mind now. you dont need to read.

so i should begin. Lets start with the way i feel right now. I feel second best, i feel worthless, i feel like im never good enough, i feel like i cant make anyone proud, a failular.

Nobody will listen to me. I say something and i am ignored. so i repeat myself. again ignored. i do something nice for someone and i get yelled at that its not good enough. i tell someone i think i may have insomia, i want to get this checked out. . im told that its all in my head and to shut up. maybe if i go to sleep earlier ill be okay. well lets see, i try to sleep, toss and turn but cant. watch some tv and try to fall asleep i cant. i dont usally fall asleep untill 2am, i wake up a few times at night. i usally wake up at 9am or 10 so only around 8 hours of sleep minus times i wake up so around 6 hours or 5.

i always get told that i never do good in school. im always compared to my little sister who gets A's. im the child that gets B's and one or two A's. ive been told recently that im anorexic because im a vegetarian. I cant tell you who but if you kno me well you should kno who im talking about. i eat heathly as a vegetarian, its been 2 weeks and i havent lost weight.

i wasnt aloud to do half the stuff my lil sis is aloud to do when i was her age. if i did things she does when i was 12 i would be grounded for life, id be dead. but dont worry its fine that she is doing the stuff i had to wait till i was 14 to do.

honestly the only place i want to be now is in wasington with my man. i honestly want to run away and be done in this stupid place called New York. i have bigger dreams that New York cant handle. and i cant wait till im 17. i cant wait 3/2 year. i just cant. i want to run away and be with the one person im in love with. okay i lied, i want to run away with my bestfriend and be with the one person im in love with.

if you took the time to read this than thanks =). it does mean alot. if you have any advise for me please re post this or tweet it to me @ sabinagl

thanks. forever and always Sabina<3